i am kristy

I'm wanting to live in an idealistic world, where the world and all that is in it makes me happy - I'm so setting myself up for disappointment. So, apparently the minimum paid holiday is 7days, booo and in HK to work 5.5days is the norm... sigh, God help me to see and know that I am capable of this and that you will go before me! I'm definately going to need you each day, I can't do it myself!!

Just received my contract for my new job and was a little annoyed cuz my hours are 10-7:30pm Mon-Fri, and 10:30-2:30pm on Sat! He never mentioned working on Sat... but I guess its instead of 10-8pm. I SOOO would rather have my weekends free, so that didn't make me happy!

Another thing is that I apparently only get 7 days paid holiday!! Most people get at least 10-14days! And I really want to go to Em's wedding and take some time off when people visit... grr that's sooo annoying! Hopefully will be able to talk to him, maybe it's just for the probation 3 months. mehhhh

I'm going for a run

My theory is that if you say it enough it'll make you no want to go... yes I need to pee.

Soo I've been up since like 6:15am bit of a record for me at the moment. my motivation was 7:30am prayer the church and it was really kewl! It's really great to be able to spend time in prayer in God's presence with other people! awesome awesome, we had waffles and fruit after so that was a bonus!

After was able to catch up with the dpma man... I've always wondered what the "p" stands for? obviously it's not related to the title haha. hmm since my blogs are always about me, I'm starting to feel really self centred... let me tell you a little bit about Derek Ma-

He is American Chinese (made the mistake of calling him Canadian once!) mid twenties 26?, recently engaged to the lovely Janice and they're due to be married 18 June, he can groove to the music, awesome speaker, genuine kinda guy, with a heart so big for God and people, leader of 180 and is passionate about what he does, works at church, lives with his bro, Cliff (who also is engaged to be married in Sept)... they're very kewl brothers, I almost wish there was another one... almost! ha there actually is, an older one - he's already married. umm when I first met Derek, he nearly made me cry - see post 29 Jan I think, but we're still friends hah! One of the easiest guys to talk to as he is open, humbled and willing to listen and speak his mind. Comfortable with his surroundings and his place in Christ, it's always refreshing being around him and talking to him. Great encourager and speaks with wisdom... hmmm what else? Check out his site, top right of the page and have a look at the video! It's awesome ( I actually can't download it, but have seen clips of it!) - this almost sounds like a personals ad! sorry ladies, he's taken heh

ok I've had two coffees already today, and I really need to pee...ohaha I wish I could a photo up of my hair, it turned out... ok :) sometimes I like it more than others, but on the whole it's pretty fun! you'll just have to come visit to see it haha

Went along to an ANZAC day thing at some peoples place... didn't even know them, but just tagged along with Nat. the funniest thing though was that out of like 15 people I was the ONLY KIWI!!! mehh I crashed an only-Aussie party!! I was on the phone when we walked in and someone passed me and then goes to another guy, "I just heard a kiwi accent!" (don't know if that was a good thing or a bad thing). They kept talking about the good old days in oz, old tv series and shows, music and bands and I really had no idea what they were going on about. Finally watched the Castle, remember seeing a copy of that in the castle st flat, but never watched it. very stereotypical so it was a bit of a laugh and other aussie stuff. I guess it was good to represent my nation as we did fight alongside them on those shores. I even wore my "I call New Zealand home" tshirt haha

I'm about to go be a "hair model" so I'm a bit wary, it could be good... or really really bad... so I might be wearing a hat for a wee while. Here's hoping

a cuppa tea
cheese & crackers (mainland camerbert on cracked pepper vitawheat)
the codecracker

I miss my flat and my flatties :( being able to come home and talk about our days, the random things we did like dressing up for our themed dinners, going for drives at night and walks on the beach, doing the flat shop at random hours of the night, washing the mini and the other cars, sitting infront of the fire, listening to some jazz or classical, reading stories of Jeeves, listening to Dave play his cello, talking to Brent through the walls, smelling baking, having lammies with Steph and chats in bed, falling asleep on the couch, feeding the ducks, eating ice cream, our granny lounge...

didn't really feel like coming home tonight... but didn't really want to stay out either. Just sat and watched as my bus passed by... and another and another... it was a beautiful nite, couldn't see any stars, but the lights from the buildings lit up the sky instead ha... it's quite a different side of HK, even in the midst of 7mil people you can still feel so alone. But I know we're not! God said He'll never leave us nor forsake us, which is an awesome promise, one that I always hold on to, knowing that whether I'm in NZ or HK or someplace else, God is always with me.

and on that note I'm signing off - nite

Right now I'm suppose to be writing my job description my boss wants to know what areas I want to get into... so far this is what's expected:

"I have a basic requirement for your job role such as you managing and supporting our marketing businesses i.e. Venue Alliance (www.venuealliance.com) and CoasterAds (www.coasterad.com) and I would also like you to deal with on-going Fluid Design and Marketing projects to help clients maximize their campaigns with us and also co-ordinate/project manage jobs and help the designs get content and information from the clients to help the designers do their work."

I keep getting these feelings of inadequacies as I think about my job... first of all I thought he'd come back to me saying they didn't want me anymore! And I've told so many people about it... I think that was a pride thing as well. But he hasn't said that and I know it'll be ok, but every so often I'm like can I do this? my boss seems to have a lot more faith in me, and is throwing me these different ideas and things for me to do now and I haven't even started yet! He suggested that I join some organisations in town, like the British Council so that'll be covering the PR stuff of what I'm suppose to be doing... but just thinking of going to these functions with top CEOs, business managers and execs, who are more experienced and then there's me, little me, young, who looks even younger (someone asked if I was 16 last week!)... what am I doing there?! meehhh

But I am reminded of 1 Tim 4:12 " Let no one look down on your youthfulness, but rather in speech, conduct, love, faith and purity, show yourself an example of those who believe"

so that's awesome... when I remember it! just then I read that BC members are expected to give a talk/seminar to the other members - it freaked me out! I really can't stand public speaking... hah coming from a soon-to-be PR officer. geek. honestly, I actually can't stand everyone looking at me - focus on the finger, the finger is pointing over there. Even when I shared a testimony in church about the missions week, my hands were shaking, I didn't really know what I was saying - ha funny cuz no one seemed to notice. That's totally God though, in our weakness He is strong.

I really just need to deal with it, have a week off before I start to get prepared, spiritually, mentally... and I know I have to do some shopping... now that's not too bad.

Who knows?!

Anyways, I've been feeling rather OVERWHELMED lately... of what? Just life... ha it sounds so cliche. I mean I actually have a LIFE now hahaa... seriously though, with a job, a church, awesome friends, and stuff - I'm starting to let my roots dig down in this place, hmm maybe for another 15 years... or maybe not. I've been so used to doing nothing and having lots of mi tiempo, that now with everything thrown at me it got a little too much and maybe I got too excited about it all and tried to do everything. It's crazy I've hardly seen my parents, maybe that's just apart of it all. So I've got a few weeks to suss it out and refocus and prioritise stuff might spend time in my cave

Just realised it's been a week since I've blogged! so here are some highlights
- Wednesday luncheon with the girls at the Vine Centre - it's becoming a weekly thing, it's kewl to be able to catch up with people during the week, everyone gets so busy with stuff it's nice just to hang
- Dropping off some stuff at my new workplace... there are some crazy cats that hang around outside that are always fighting!!
- Hanging with Neena
- Taking Shiva on a quickie tour of HK in one night! So crazy, but we managed to go on every single form of transport here apart from a minibus!
- Making Jared's raspberry slice, thumbs up dude, everyone's loving it - I know I need more friends hah (funny Abbey made it this weekend as well!)
- Going down to the beach and witnessing 13 baptisms!! awesome awesome
- Being encouraged by Rick Heeren and workplace ministry yeah I'm excited about my new job!! I know God has placed me there wooahooo

ok my mum's actually telling me to go to bed!! and she said she won't wake me up in the morning... hmm I guess that's what you get for living at home

Random #1
On the way home tonight the guy sitting next to me was sleeping and he kept falling on me! It was so crazy, so I kept moving the other way, so I was half in the aisle... he even started snoring! haha... it was amusing though, and got me thinking about mi personale espacio and how much I enjoy my space. I guess another way to see it, is if I wasn't there he could have hurt himself quite terribly, so that's no fun

Random #2
At lunch today, was chatting to some ladies in the office and they're so cute, they're really excited about my new job! hah... and they've somehow managed to rope me into making a pavalova because I'm leaving! Apparently it's in exchange for something, I dunno, it's going to be a surprise hmm...

Random #3
Last night I was planning to have a quiet one at home, but then realised my mum was speaking at church (now how did that slip my mind?!) but it was really kewl seeing my mum up there and sharing what's on her heart and stories about her three little girls - hey wait she's talking about me!! Never had that happen before haha it was funny though, I actually laughed out LOUD

Random #4
Yesterday as I was walking out of church, who do I see?!! MALCOLM! OMG it was so crazy, and surreal, but hello, he was there. It was like mixing up my NZ life and HK life, those things only happen in dreams... well apparently not! He's here for a week with his fiancee (she's sooo lovely!) and they just happen to be staying with some of her friends from Oz that go to the same church. Small world ay

Random #5
We had gone out for Amy's bday lunch with her parents and realised this other guy went to the same school as me, although he is a few years younger we managed to find out who we knew and so on. And it was kewl talking about KGV life and our loyalties with Upsdell (our house, which I was the girls captain of, but he didn't even know that... boooo that's ok he's a guy)

Random #6
Phil called! ok it wasn't completely random, since we had arranged a time, but that was nice... oh speaking of calls, got one from Davina when I was at work and typical her was just sitting on the toilet (she won't mind me sharing this)!! hah cracks me up, the fact that you can be so comfortable with someone, there's nothing really to hide even when you're over in LA. loveya dove!

ahh... random stuff - it's like finding out you still have some chocolate in the fridge!! It makes my day

Funny thing was after I was offered the job, I was in such a stink mood!! Like bleh, I wasn't totally over the moon about the offer - I knew I was going to get it, I had the peace already even before and in the interviews - but had sucha niggly feeling that day. And so had a quiet time and talked to God about it and what I realised is that a job isn't going to satisfy me, nor provide me the things I need, nor give me a purpose for life... it's JUST a job! the ONLY thing that will EVER fulfil me, give me life and is my reason for why I'm here is Jesus Christ. Honestly, it was a huge revelation, because I've been so penned up on getting a job, and thought that only then will I be worth something, be of value, can make a difference, be an influence... but no, we are called to do that regardless of our job situation, any situation. We are called to live a higher life! So once I realised that, I started getting excited about the job, cuz I know God has placed me there for a reason and in whatever we do we do it for the Lord.

ok there is, and that's TWO CUPS! Yes I had two really na-sty coffees today, urgh... those instant ones with everything in it already, and powdered creamier. gross... ha whoever said life is too short for depressos is SOOO true!

Anyways... it's been one of those days when I wish I was back in NZ, mainly so I could close my eyes and walk home at night down North Rd. mehh... so couldn't do that here! I'd bump into people and things and there's always cars and people around, I just want it all to be quiet... shhh shhh

That's what I loved about living in the valley, so that I could have those times alone to think, or just clear my mind... it's so hard doing that here. You're constantly surrounded by people talking on their phones really loudly, or phones ringing, cars honking and roaring by, or even in the buses, the roadshow tv screen blares on... there is no escape! ahhhh

Yesterday we went out for a hike in Sai Kung and to a beach... and it was sooo nice just falling asleep on the beach with the sound of the waves and the feel of sand between your toes. hmm let's pretend it's Fiji baby

so yes there is a lot on my mind at the moment, nothing in particular, and yet everything at the same time

sigh... I think the whole idea that my life can change at any moment now is actually scaring me. Am I ready? I thought I was, but now part of me is wanting to hold back, it's not the best, but at least I know what it's like. The uncertainty of the future and what it holds. ha why am I always like this? Like what? Like the way I am... how many times have I been through this, to yet go through it again and again? Is my faith that weak? Don't I trust God enough to know He always has the best for me and promises a future of hope and blessing? I guess the reason we continue to go through times like these is to take our eyes off the world and the finite life it offers, build up our faith, and draw us closer to the one who does promise us good things. It's just that when we're in those situations it's never that obvious.

ok, I just need to get over it... so I got a job offer today, I have a few days to think about it and will have to get back to them early next week. I'm thinking I'll take it, ok yes, I will. woohooo I got a job! shh, I haven't even told them yet ha

I love how you have special things with friends, just between the two of you that no one else shares. It's great and I guess you end up taking pieces of them with you and they do the same. And in the end, a lot of who you are can be seen in the friends and people around you... if you get what I mean.

Basically what attracts you to someone is some sort of common thread/element, something you both can relate to... and from there on you begin to realise more things about them, qualities you admire, respect, and desire in your own life. But I guess there are also areas we want to help and encourage each other in, to stand by and be strong when they need you and knowing that they will be strong for you. And that's the greatest thing about friends, that you can be who you are with, with no fear of being looked down on, laughed, judged, ridiculed...

I love it in A Knight's Tale when the King says to Heath Ledger (forgot his character's name) "Your men love you, if I didn't know anything else about you, that would be enough" and the same goes with friends.

In the past few days, I've shared some special times with my friends...
going to the hairdressers for a hair wash, buying the same shoes, long distance phonecalls, seeing old friends who I haven't seen in over 3years!, receiving encouraging texts, laughs over crazy movies, sitting outside at nite talking, catching up over lunches, chatting online to people in NZ, OZ & Singapore...

ahh love my friends, it would be kewl for all of them to meet... maybe one day haha yeah at my wedding!

It's been a really kewl week...

When I get up in the morning I know what I'm doing, there's a routine... although I'm slowly slipping from it! haha I was so good and woke up early, and got ready, made my lunch... then gradually over the four days I've actually been at work, I've gotten up later and stopped eating breakfast, skipped lunch (ok I fasted), taken the later buses... haha it probably progressively gets worse towards the end of the week! lovin it... the office is really nice, so I can get all dressed up corporate style. I'm quickly running out of tops, so might have to do some quick shopping. The work itself is soooo boring... I have to go through old newspapers and find companies and then look up their details online and put them in a database. I think once I've done that, I have to call them to check their details... oh what funnn

Just bought a top which says "pretending it's saturday" I can't wait to wear it!

oh I'm quite excited about this other company I had an interview with. Well, scared aswell, cuz I'd be expected to do all this stuff and have responsibilities and I'm kinda getting used to doing things my way... "I did it myyyy wayy" ahh old songs. He gave me a wee assignment to do, so I've just emailed my ideas and will hear back probably next week. It's a small company around 8-10ppl and so it's definately a place where you could make a difference, unlike those big MNC who are so rigid, bureaucratic, but who knows?! hmm yes God does... will be praying

anyways, speaking of ingrown hairs hahaa (or lack of, cuz now I've shaved) I really should start running ... tomorrow :) I've been hula-hooping at home which is kewl (the 2 times I did it) but I went on for like 15mins w/o stopping! good for the abs I tell ya (no 1cm there!!)

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