Sunday, July 31, 2005
The Talk
The past week I have thinking about the fact that my 3 months probation is coming and what's going to happen. I had that terrible feeling (fear) that my boss had forgotten and he's going away for 2 weeks, so we could only talk when he gets back. But yesterday he sent an email and said we should go for a coffee and talk about my performance etc.
so the talk... well as usual he likes talking so he did most of it. Overall he's happy with what I've been doing and how things are going, which is great and discussed some of my weaknesses and how I can improve on them. Also about where I want to be going in terms of my career and areas I'm interested in developing, main thing is language and there's opportunities to go into China! so that's exciting!
I'm just so amazed at how God has organised and planned this all! With my job and a great boss who loves affirming with words (I totally need that!) empowering me to take the part of the business I'm managing and make it my baby (me the control freak), encouraging me to be confident in what I'm doing and not look down on my abilities (fears and insecurities) - it's all been taken care of. Even financially, everyone would like to be paid more, and when I started God knew exactly how much I needed and if I was faithful with it He promised to increase it... and now 3 months later I've received a pay rise :) Awesome ay
And now, with this all there is more responsibilities, more opportunities and really a time when I need to focus on what's important and where I should be directing my time and energy. And we talked about life and making sure there's a balance in what we do, so that's really good to know his thoughts on that.
A few verses I was reading this week on the way to work confirm this all as well...
Daniel 10:12
Then he said to me, “Do not fear, Daniel, for from the first day that you set your heart to understand, and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard; and I have come because of your words.
Jeremiah 1:7-8
“ Do not say, ‘I am a youth,’
For you shall go to all to whom I send you,
And whatever I command you, you shall speak.
Do not be afraid of their faces,
For I am with you to deliver you,” says the LORD.
Ecclesiastes 3 - A time for everything :9-15
What profit has the worker from that in which he labors? I have seen the God-given task with which the sons of men are to be occupied. He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.
I know that nothing is better for them than to rejoice, and to do good in their lives, and also that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labor—it is the gift of God.
I know that whatever God does, it shall be forever. Nothing can be added to it, and nothing taken from it. God does it, that men should fear before Him. That which is has already been, and what is to be has already been; and God requires an account of what is past.
so the talk... well as usual he likes talking so he did most of it. Overall he's happy with what I've been doing and how things are going, which is great and discussed some of my weaknesses and how I can improve on them. Also about where I want to be going in terms of my career and areas I'm interested in developing, main thing is language and there's opportunities to go into China! so that's exciting!
I'm just so amazed at how God has organised and planned this all! With my job and a great boss who loves affirming with words (I totally need that!) empowering me to take the part of the business I'm managing and make it my baby (me the control freak), encouraging me to be confident in what I'm doing and not look down on my abilities (fears and insecurities) - it's all been taken care of. Even financially, everyone would like to be paid more, and when I started God knew exactly how much I needed and if I was faithful with it He promised to increase it... and now 3 months later I've received a pay rise :) Awesome ay
And now, with this all there is more responsibilities, more opportunities and really a time when I need to focus on what's important and where I should be directing my time and energy. And we talked about life and making sure there's a balance in what we do, so that's really good to know his thoughts on that.
A few verses I was reading this week on the way to work confirm this all as well...
Daniel 10:12
Then he said to me, “Do not fear, Daniel, for from the first day that you set your heart to understand, and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard; and I have come because of your words.
Jeremiah 1:7-8
“ Do not say, ‘I am a youth,’
For you shall go to all to whom I send you,
And whatever I command you, you shall speak.
Do not be afraid of their faces,
For I am with you to deliver you,” says the LORD.
Ecclesiastes 3 - A time for everything :9-15
What profit has the worker from that in which he labors? I have seen the God-given task with which the sons of men are to be occupied. He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.
I know that nothing is better for them than to rejoice, and to do good in their lives, and also that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labor—it is the gift of God.
I know that whatever God does, it shall be forever. Nothing can be added to it, and nothing taken from it. God does it, that men should fear before Him. That which is has already been, and what is to be has already been; and God requires an account of what is past.
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Some of the lovely ladies I've met (left-right) Suki, Mandy and Gabby
Just found a pic on the church website - our "Amazing Grace" team! We ran around HK dressed like that!
Sunday, July 24, 2005
DO IT!
Dove has got me saying that now "Do it, do it"... and if you've seen Starsky & Hutch then you know what I mean ha
For the pass couple of days, even weeks there have been a few things going on, and I keep going over them in my mind and I know what I should do, but don't do them... either I think about it so much that I think I've actually done it, or I keep procrastinating and putting it off and it gets demoted down the to do list.
An email and a talk with Lyds this week pushed some buttons and as always she is full of amazing wisdom and encouragement, I just love talking to her. Honestly I have to think more objectively about things and try to remove the emotional element which is always involved. Not saying that its a bad thing, but sometimes it does effect your judgement and thinking...
And the speakers this weekend both at 180 and morning church were entirely relevant to me and where I'm at. One being on purity and that our purity is what effects how intimate we are with God and the other asked the question "Where are you?" from God's perspective. He's looking for us, waiting for us... why do we busy ourselves with the things around us, when all He wants is for us to look up and smile at Him?!
There's some stuff I need to deal with and these lyrics sum it up quite nicely...
How could someone so beautiful
Feel something for me
Hold me and love me and touch me again
And show me why I believe
That the first time I see your face
Everything else around me will fade to the background
and I'll be struck, full, by the truth in your gaze
As you work an indelible change in me
All I have and all I am and all I think and do
Can find its purpose and meaning and life only in you
- Indelible, Brooke Fraser
For the pass couple of days, even weeks there have been a few things going on, and I keep going over them in my mind and I know what I should do, but don't do them... either I think about it so much that I think I've actually done it, or I keep procrastinating and putting it off and it gets demoted down the to do list.
An email and a talk with Lyds this week pushed some buttons and as always she is full of amazing wisdom and encouragement, I just love talking to her. Honestly I have to think more objectively about things and try to remove the emotional element which is always involved. Not saying that its a bad thing, but sometimes it does effect your judgement and thinking...
And the speakers this weekend both at 180 and morning church were entirely relevant to me and where I'm at. One being on purity and that our purity is what effects how intimate we are with God and the other asked the question "Where are you?" from God's perspective. He's looking for us, waiting for us... why do we busy ourselves with the things around us, when all He wants is for us to look up and smile at Him?!
There's some stuff I need to deal with and these lyrics sum it up quite nicely...
How could someone so beautiful
Feel something for me
Hold me and love me and touch me again
And show me why I believe
That the first time I see your face
Everything else around me will fade to the background
and I'll be struck, full, by the truth in your gaze
As you work an indelible change in me
All I have and all I am and all I think and do
Can find its purpose and meaning and life only in you
- Indelible, Brooke Fraser
Thursday, July 21, 2005
3:44am
I just got home from Dove's... crazy night/morning of laughs and catching up - love it.
ah I have work tomorrow, so better jet to bed
ah I have work tomorrow, so better jet to bed
Monday, July 18, 2005
we can't always plan
One thing I find frustrating is having your day planned and sorted and you've prepared everything so you can do what needs to be done within the time you've given it... and then something or someone comes along and disrupts it all and throws everything out of whack! I guess I get so set on things that when they don't go according to plan then it's like, now what?
Anyways, Dove is back in town and was suppose to see her last nite, but couldn't and then we were planning to see her tonite, but that didn't happen... and she's only here for a week! We're all working during the day and she's busy sorting out stuff anyway and everyones tired at night so that just sucks :( At least I don't have to tape Lost tonite! hah
Work was kinda crazy but fun today... I'm getting to know some of the venues pretty well and they always offer me drinks and to sit and chat hah :) yeah I'm "working" but I guess it is part of what I'm suppose to do, get to know the people, build relationships and so on. It's funny how knowledge and understanding effects how you think and perceive things... particularly with people. The more you know, the more you understand and can relate to them. So that's good...
Got asked that "are you chinese?" question again today... all in a days work :)
Anyways, Dove is back in town and was suppose to see her last nite, but couldn't and then we were planning to see her tonite, but that didn't happen... and she's only here for a week! We're all working during the day and she's busy sorting out stuff anyway and everyones tired at night so that just sucks :( At least I don't have to tape Lost tonite! hah
Work was kinda crazy but fun today... I'm getting to know some of the venues pretty well and they always offer me drinks and to sit and chat hah :) yeah I'm "working" but I guess it is part of what I'm suppose to do, get to know the people, build relationships and so on. It's funny how knowledge and understanding effects how you think and perceive things... particularly with people. The more you know, the more you understand and can relate to them. So that's good...
Got asked that "are you chinese?" question again today... all in a days work :)
Sunday, July 10, 2005
somewhat obssessed
...with work. Perhaps. The past week I've been leaving work at 8:30, 9ish, 10:30pm... There is lots of stuff going on and I actually like being at work. Maybe because it gives me a focus, something to do, a sense of worth & importance even. I dunno. Or maybe I'm just trying to 'busy' myself so that I don't have time to do anything else... other things that I should really be doing, committing to, spending time on/with. hmmm here's our new internal newsletter some of us put together Fluid Newsletter Funny :)
...with earl grey tea. I'm lovin it and have at least a cup or two a day. I find it rather calming and helps to clear the mind. So that's good
...with shoes. I bought another pair today, and last week I bought two pairs on the same day, one pair before work and one pair after! Do I really need them? Well now that's debatable
...with Lost. The tv series that's started recently here, hadn't heard of it before (I'm a bit slow with these things) but it's the only tv I watch each week, so I guess that's ok. Although it is getting rather cheesy
...with earl grey tea. I'm lovin it and have at least a cup or two a day. I find it rather calming and helps to clear the mind. So that's good
...with shoes. I bought another pair today, and last week I bought two pairs on the same day, one pair before work and one pair after! Do I really need them? Well now that's debatable
...with Lost. The tv series that's started recently here, hadn't heard of it before (I'm a bit slow with these things) but it's the only tv I watch each week, so I guess that's ok. Although it is getting rather cheesy
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Sunday, July 03, 2005
a common question
Seriously there's a question that I get asked at least once a week and it goes something like this...
Other person: Are you chinese?
Me: yes
Other person: you don't look chinese
Me: I know, I get that a lot
Well I guess the up side of that is that it usually means I'm meeting someone new and if it's every week then that's a lot of people! either that or people just have very short term memories! hahaa the only thing is that no one ever says what they think I look like!
Other person: Are you chinese?
Me: yes
Other person: you don't look chinese
Me: I know, I get that a lot
Well I guess the up side of that is that it usually means I'm meeting someone new and if it's every week then that's a lot of people! either that or people just have very short term memories! hahaa the only thing is that no one ever says what they think I look like!
Friday, July 01, 2005
Carmi aka mavis
Had the greatest talk with Carmi this morning!!! well by the time I woke up and sorted myself out it was lunch... but that's ok it's a holiday :)
Carmi & I been through so much over the past few years, starting from the Chile missions trip... we REALLY had to get to know each other as we shared a room for 3 weeks & then a tent for 2 more! You seriously get to KNOW someone when you spend that much time with them, esp Carmi's random habits like sleeping talking in three different languages and my crazy morning antics haha... we also got to learn a lot about our personales espacio hmmm
Then we were in the same lifegroup, accountability partners, prayer buddies, tennis partners (that one time!) and not to mention a certain club we had haha good times. And she's never failed to listen, offer advice, pray, speak words of encouragement and tell me how much she loves me... and I know I don't say it enough, but thankyou Carmi for always being there, you are a true blessing from God and I'm soooo happy that you're only a phone call away :) love you Carmi, honestly I do
Carmi & I been through so much over the past few years, starting from the Chile missions trip... we REALLY had to get to know each other as we shared a room for 3 weeks & then a tent for 2 more! You seriously get to KNOW someone when you spend that much time with them, esp Carmi's random habits like sleeping talking in three different languages and my crazy morning antics haha... we also got to learn a lot about our personales espacio hmmm
Then we were in the same lifegroup, accountability partners, prayer buddies, tennis partners (that one time!) and not to mention a certain club we had haha good times. And she's never failed to listen, offer advice, pray, speak words of encouragement and tell me how much she loves me... and I know I don't say it enough, but thankyou Carmi for always being there, you are a true blessing from God and I'm soooo happy that you're only a phone call away :) love you Carmi, honestly I do
